Going to a college party as a post grad...

Okay okay okay, I know what you all are thinking. "Why was she at a college party?" "She doesn't even go here anymore.." Yeah, I get it. But hey! One of my close friends was going to move to Chicago and was having a going away party. She is still in college so it was a given that college kids were going to be at the party. Mixed in with the college kids were some of my friends and some post grads as well.

The party was interesting to say the least, there was your typical douches drinking too much and unfriendly cliques of people I didn't know. I found myself a bit of an outsider in sense seeing how a lot of the conversations circulated around school and classes. I mostly listened and made casual small talk with the people I was sitting around. I did however, find another grad. He was actually in one of my classes, never really talked to him much but nonetheless he was someone to talk to that was interested in talking about something other than school. We awkwardly got to talking when he found out I was done [with school] and that we were in a class together last year. He immediately began to ask what I was doing and whether I had a job or not. I'm sure we can all agree, after college everyone is really curious to see how other people are doing. It's a comparison thing really, he just wanted to know if he was doing better off than me or if I was better than him. It's human nature to stop and think, how am doing compared to my peers? The conversation ended in both of us agreeing in our heads that we were both doing alright post grad. We both had jobs and were doing something with our lives that was related to our majors. The night ended with myself, my boyfriend, and my friend talking about life and work. I think that because this party was a going away party, naturally we re-evaluated ourselves for a second. We discussed all possibly leaving this town and making a move somewhere. It was interesting and made us reflect a bit, We kept to ourselves and of course made sure to catch the hostess of the party and talking her about her big move to Chicago.

All in all, good food, awkward convos, and the feeling that I felt out of place with college kids...haha its funny really, because at work I feel a little out of place since I am so young. The one time I do hang out with people my age, I feel out of place. I guess this is just that transition stage in my life where I don't quite fit in anywhere...The only people who understand me are my post grad friends that are going through the same exact thing.. I guess we should stick together in this thing called life haha well more to come and the random things that occur in my life.

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